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3/06/2008

is it wrong?

why must someone in your life compare you to the one person that you strive to be nothing like? how do they "forget" the things they said infront of you, that made your children question how much you care for them? how can they tell you that your own mother didn't want anything to do with you?

and then when you tell them what their doing they say..

"I just don't want anything to do with you anymore, but I love you like you were my own. More than my own...."

but their own is the one they compare you too and say you treat me just like he treats me.

I feel bad. I really do. I feel bad I never see her, I feel bad my children don't know really who she is. I feel bad my children don't know my real dad. But am I a bad person because I want to protect my children from the ONLY thing that truely upsets me? I never come to tears when talking with her, normally I get just utterly mad more Pissed....and today I was brought to tears. She told me things I didn't care to hear or even know. Stuff that I tried do many years to forget and look past. I know she loves me and I know my real dad loves me. I do love them too. I fogave them a long time ago. However I can not forget.

I am human.

3/04/2008

aghh....

Sorry that I have been absent minded here lately! I think I am in "recovery" mode from the past two weekends!! The wedding, and this past weekend my brother and his wife came to celebrate his birthday! It was fun!! We all had a blast!! They even got their matching wedding bands tattooed on!! And of course it was done by the awesome
K. Lee!!

www.myspace.com/propheticink.com

they are perfect!! (i would insert a pic here....but you know me I am lazy ;))

anyways! Andrew had his baseball tryouts this weekend too! He is a player for the Red Socks!! YAY! Thank goodness his old coach from last year is not his coach this time! That dude was horrible!

Also, good news.....WE ARE GOING TO GATLINBURG!! Woo Hoo!! The trip is booked!! We are going in June! My bro and his wife and their youngsters are coming as well as her parents and their daughter! They are cool people! I can not wait!!

*sigh*

trying to think what else is going on......

yeah......


Not much is coming to mind at the moment! hehe

So till next time.....







OH AND ANI DIFRANCO IS IN LESS THEN TWO WEEKS!!! AND I AM GONNA BE THERE!!!!!!!!

Be Jealous! ;)